I talked much about myself..
but there's always more that i keep for myself
and while im talking, i listen and pay attentions on details of others
I have photographic memories,
but i love to play forgetful in front of public
I always act bad..
but deep down, if you can recognizes me
there's a decent girl inside crying for life
I used to drink alcohols
smoked weeds, i didn't do those stuff anymore
instead im addicted to cigarettes
I wish i could stop the nicotine addiction sometimes soon
I speak things bluntly
I have my own point of view about life
I dont force anyone to agree with my point of views
and I dont care what others think about me
as long as im doing them no harm..
and I dont care what others think about me
as long as im doing them no harm..
I love to hangout with boys
Boys talks about cars, sports, fights, and other exciting stuffs
Most girls do gossip & make up shit..
I dont feel comfort with those "girls" stuff
I like to wear sexy dresses
act bitchy
but i feel lot more comfort wearing my old t-shirt + ragged jeans
and act like me
Im stubborn..
I always put my defense fences high
coz ive been through lots of rough times before
bad things happened in my life, things u couldnt possibly imagine
Ive tried to believe on many things and pushed my trust way to the limit
but i always end up disappointed by things that ive believed
so now, you could say that i probably dont believe in anything anymore
Boys talks about cars, sports, fights, and other exciting stuffs
Most girls do gossip & make up shit..
I dont feel comfort with those "girls" stuff
I like to wear sexy dresses
act bitchy
but i feel lot more comfort wearing my old t-shirt + ragged jeans
and act like me
Im stubborn..
I always put my defense fences high
coz ive been through lots of rough times before
bad things happened in my life, things u couldnt possibly imagine
Ive tried to believe on many things and pushed my trust way to the limit
but i always end up disappointed by things that ive believed
so now, you could say that i probably dont believe in anything anymore
I used to be though..
Now, im as fragile as a broken antique crystal vase
I have lots of scars
some came from fights
some came from few failed suicidal attempts
some from accidents
I always demand for more
actually, im easy to pleased with simple things
Most people prejudices me wrong
Only few could see right through me
I often hangout at night until dawn
'coz i have insomnia since i was 10 years old
Im addicted to sleeping pills
I had breast cancer for almost 7 years
always said that im doin' ok with it in front of peoples and my parents
but honestly,
i did get tired of fighting it..
tired of acting that life was doing ok with me..
Now, im as fragile as a broken antique crystal vase
I have lots of scars
some came from fights
some came from few failed suicidal attempts
some from accidents
I always demand for more
actually, im easy to pleased with simple things
Most people prejudices me wrong
Only few could see right through me
I often hangout at night until dawn
'coz i have insomnia since i was 10 years old
Im addicted to sleeping pills
I had breast cancer for almost 7 years
always said that im doin' ok with it in front of peoples and my parents
but honestly,
i did get tired of fighting it..
tired of acting that life was doing ok with me..
as you could see,
Im not that though as I used to be..
Ive changed
and lucky to survived to the point where i am standing now..